work in progress

I just looked in my documents folder as I await word on my 3rd script...is it funny...marketable...interesting...need work...
And I see 6 unfinished scripts - I could do this all day long.
It occurs to me I have been bogged down and can't get my creativity flow on because I'm so sure making money to eat is more important.
Which really pisses me off. The one thing I am good at, I can't do, because I have to spend so much time doing stuff for other people so they can be successful. How does this work?
Writing takes time, which I don't have a lot of. I spend much of my day nurturing children.
Then I spend some days fixing other people problems.
Then I try to fit in exercise, because my mental health depends on it.
Then I spend another portion of my day worrying about money.
My ideas come fast enough for me to write down and outline and then go back to taking care of other people's shit.
It's exhausting.
And let's through a boy in the mix... distractions are everywhere
I am easily distracted, this is a fact. But, when I'm on, I'm on.
Everyone needs one more hour in every day - I wonder when I will get a full day or week back that I fully own.

Amazing summer experience

I live for summer. The smell of the beach. The sound of the ocean. The freedom of a few weeks, kidless and fancy-free. The concept of no-school. The 3 month period where no one expects anything. Even as an adult, I feel - this is the time I get to be me - 100%.
I have been planning a trip abroad, but took an opportunity to spend some time time with someone I have been wanting to get to spend personal/ one-on-one time with. A road trip - old school.

My trip started in Moab and traversed the desert National Parks via Bryce Canyon and Zion. This portion of the trip included camping, which is not my ideal of vacation, but I am open to trying new things so I jumped aboard. I camped for a few days. I took in the sights of the beautiful National Parks. I readied myself for Las Vegas which is my playground for most summers (at least one week).
Las Vegas is one of the few places in this country where you can truly let yourself go and its considered part of what's expected. Part of the ease of Vegas is not having to be accountable for your actions. Gamble, party and just rock on!
I realized this trip that the camping portion was the most relaxing part because I did not have to show up and be a rock star...for once. I could hike and be quiet and just let someone else take the reigns for once.
It's exhausting to be "on" all the time and this is the first time I realized that I don't want to be on - sometimes I just want to chill... and this week I got to chill.
And my brother happened to have a baby while I was on vacation...so I got to be an aunt... How hot is that?

Someone stop my competitive urges

And you wonder how two grown women over the age of 35 decide to have a foot race at a BBQ?