Tuesday, June 30, 2009

work in progress

I just looked in my documents folder as I await word on my 3rd script...is it funny...marketable...interesting...need work...
And I see 6 unfinished scripts - I could do this all day long.
It occurs to me I have been bogged down and can't get my creativity flow on because I'm so sure making money to eat is more important.
Which really pisses me off. The one thing I am good at, I can't do, because I have to spend so much time doing stuff for other people so they can be successful. How does this work?
Writing takes time, which I don't have a lot of. I spend much of my day nurturing children.
Then I spend some days fixing other people problems.
Then I try to fit in exercise, because my mental health depends on it.
Then I spend another portion of my day worrying about money.
My ideas come fast enough for me to write down and outline and then go back to taking care of other people's shit.
It's exhausting.
And let's through a boy in the mix... distractions are everywhere
I am easily distracted, this is a fact. But, when I'm on, I'm on.
Everyone needs one more hour in every day - I wonder when I will get a full day or week back that I fully own.

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