In my former life(meaning life before kids), I was a model and worked in the film industry. I was laid back and even though I have always been strong-willed, I didn't really venture out of my circle expressing my beliefs to others. "Be and Let Be" was my motto. I had a cute jeep, and lived in various trendy apartments in Boston, Paris, LA and numerous other cities. Where ever I rested my head was home, and I was fine with that.
Recently, I have started to remember those feelings of life before kids, and I wouldn't change a thing, but I miss my old life sometimes. Here and there I take a bit back. I still pick up a freelance shoot here and there. I still write (albeit, not for TV, but it's still writing). I still keep a cute SUV, although not so sporty and I generally drive a sedan to cart kids around in and travel to and from work.
More recently, I have had friends and business acquaintances drawing me back into my lifestyle and career. Opportunities arising all the time to get back into the industry that I love, but how do I juggle family? I am committed to my family, but I have a gap that needs to be filled as well. My chance to be ME seems to be be resurfacing. Or is this just another distraction from mid-life? Another misnomer life is throwing at me to remind me that the success I thought I craved is lost, and a new success must be achieved.
Do I chase my dreams once again or do I continue to excuse my smoldering career dreams as my childrens dreams become more important?
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